Photographic Memories

Mr Mac.

The truth is, is I love my MacBook Pro.

It seems to be the one thing that doesn't turn around and say it doesn't like me anymore.

It's beautiful.

who needs a boy when you have Mr Mac?

Changes.

To, J.A.

I miss you

Much Love

S.G

Lying down.

I watch the leaves fall to the ground.

It's supposed to be october but it's 27 degree's and I can feel the sun burning on my knee's

I hear the cars go by and I hear the birds sing I close my eyes and just listen.

I touch the grass and give a big sigh,

I sit up quickly and look up at the sky

this time last year life was so different

and now its changed so much,

we really are growing up.

at night I'm counting up the stars in the sky,

thinking of what you did and wondering why.

you was my best friend and he was an ex.

you took his side and forgot about the rest.

he broke my heart and you stabbed my back.

I honestly feel like I'll never get you back.

so why does this happen?

when we grow up?

why do we slowly loose the people

who used to mean so much?

Regrets

Last nights regrets are at the bottom of my legs
As I get up i'm watching where i tred.
His in bed facing the door
I grab my clothes as i rumage through them on the floor.
I leave a note it says "thanks for last night" I leave the room
quickly and light.


If everyone knew all the bones in my body, they would call me bad and forever scorn me.
no man could love me nor woman respect me and even if they did....

Regretment is on my lips as well as lies and scandal I do this to myself then I get drunk and ramble, they said life wasn't easy and it's most certainly hard. to not make mistakes is impossible and to make their statement it has to be done large.

So in my head i'm back in his bed, I kiss his cheek and i say words unsaid but thats just a dream and this is real life and I could never commit myself to any sort of guy.

Mumma Knows Best.

"Don't run away from happiness" my mum used to tell me when I was young
but I was foolish and totally crazy and out to have fun.
I used play games, with my heart because I thought it was what I wanted, oh how could I have been so wrong?

She said you gotta live for each day, open up your heart, let them take your breath away don't ever fall apart, you've got to smile for each moment and laugh when you can cause life's to short and things aren't planned

So when i was sixteen I dropped out of school and went to college where i learnt how to do, the things I do and now i'm trying to go places and it will work...atleast I hope I've got a degree to achieve and future ahead, so now i better stop playing mind games with my head.

She said you gotta live for each day, open up your heart, let them take your breath away don't ever fall apart, you've got to smile for each moment and laugh when you can cause life's to short and bad thing's aren't planned.

An introduction to the owner of the music box.

Sadie-Rae Gartell

18 Years Old

London.

Actress.

Hello :)
My name is Sadie-Rae and i'm the owner of the music box blog. this blog is full of emotions and feelings that at some point in my life i can relate too, sometimes i write stuff about other people, sometimes i write about me :)

I do foolish things, i fall for guys that treat me bad and throw away the good ones, I have some really incredible friends and i love going out. I make a lot of mistakes, i'm clumbsy and I say things without thinking

I love Tea,Cake,Red Lipstick & Sunshine.

I'm not perfect and i'm always messing up but thats just me. :)

cold

You have become so cold towards me, that its making me want to run.


You can cut the atmosphere here with a knife or even safty sissors,


i'm walking on eggshells i'm keeping quiet don't want to upset you or bring you down.


your sitting three meters away ignoring mostly everything i say.





i feel like i have to back away.


incase you snap hit me or walk away.


i have no idea what to say.


you make me want to run away.





someone come and get me from the window by my chair.


get rid of all this awkwardness pretend it was never there


someone come and save me from what feels like a depressing night


someone come and lift me up and make me feel high.

"L"

Touching your hand,
kissing your skin,
holding you close,
breathing you in.

Things used to be so simple.
now there rather hard,
falling inlove is now a fear than a dream of which we want.

Letting you go and saying "no" is what its all about.
running away and hiding from love trying to shut it out.

We all want it so bad but fear it too much, to get hurt, to get cut up.

Little Book

I have a little book and i write in it everyday and when you open it you'll find things to read that say:

I watched you walk away.
I heard you say you don't feel the same
I see your hand slip away
and as you turn around i feel my heart fall to the ground

I'll just let you walk away, you had your say say now the damage is done and i wont turn away, untill i can no longer see your shadow as it follows the sun.

so when I see you as you walk past one day
I wont forget to mention the day when i turned around and walked away because waiting for you just isn't the same.

the other side

New Blog guys!!!!
it doesn't mean this ones stopping
its just the other ones another side of me. its about who i am
please follow
sadie-raegartell.blogspot.com

thank you lovelys x

Happy Monday!

today i woke up with a big huge smile.
sat up in my bed and thought for a little while.
looked up and saw no sunshine, instead a load of rain.
but that didn't stop me smiling because i got alot to gain.
skipped to college didn't walk, sat on the bus and listened to the words laura marling spoke

today is happy monday.
and im feeling really grand
got my monthly paycheque
and now im heading for the sand
don't know where the futures taking me
don't know what its got planned but today is happy monday
and i wish you were holding my hand.

i stop off at your work and i come to pick you up.
we drive along the road singing along to somewhere in my heart
we park outside your house and you pick up all your things
we have a cup of tea and we drive off with the wind
because

today is happy monday
and im feeling kind of grand
got my monthly paycheque
and im heading for the sand
don't know where the futures taking me
don't know what its got planned but today is happy monday
and your finally holding my hand.
♥

Hello ;)

Hello Two Thousand and Eleven!

New Year Resolutions!

• Get good grades
• Get into University
• Go on Holiday
• Try to save up some money
• Go to more gigs
• Get more life experience ;)
• See my friends alot more and make more effort
• Work harder at school
• Write more in my blog!!!